Karma is my game

We're Special.

Though we may be gay, we're still humans like you guys, it ain't much of a different but the only thing is, we're more special

People nowadays, love to look down on humans like us. Wondering why is it such a big issue to them when we don't mean any harm. We're just a normal human being like everyone else living in this world, where our intentions are just to go through a path where we'll find our own happiness & where we can love the one that we've been wanting them to hold on to us, making us feel loved, & secure. But some of them just don't understand us. They just want us to be like how it is supposed to be. Boys loving girls & girls loving boys. It ain't that easy once you've chosen your path unless you're a human who love both genders [ as people called it Bisexuals ], then it's much more simpler.

Don't asked us why we're gay when we supposed to love the opposite sex. Some of us are born this way, while some were being raped, molested, etc. by the same gender. It's not that we want to be this way, but it's because that we are born to be this way, so don't blame us for choosing the wrong path but instead please do give us the respect & understanding that we should get from you people like how you all respect & understand one another. We're like you, & you're like us but the one thing different is that, we're more special. And I know that this is the biggest sin in some religions but still, this is our decision, not yours. In the end, we'll need to face the consequences, alone. So just continue & do good deeds in your life, settle your own problems, find your own happiness cause we're finding our own happiness just like you & everybody else. Don't bother others when you got your own life to bother.

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My Special Candle.

You're my special candle. Your flame keeps me companied attracting the smile to stay on my face while it lets the loneliness & darkness away

The night sky is covered with black dark clouds letting out cold raindrops while my eyes are filling up cold tears wanting to set them free but then as the tears were about to run down, a message appeared on my phone & it was from S. I smiled a little but then after what I've heard from that boy who is kind of bitchy, my heart cracks & it breaks into pieces. I don't want to be fooled again but I tried not to think about it that much, so I just replied his text. Sat down in the cold dark room while the dark clouds continue to let out rain with lightning being seen & then a loud clap heard from thunder. Emotions conquer my heart til the messages I send was rather emotional.

Then my heart glows a little with a smile drawn on my face. His words just can't make me stop smiling, then the emotions fought it back & it went to my mind, making my eyes watched the negative flashbacks. My heart shatters & so the tears filled the eyes but as the conversation continues, tears started to sink in my eyes & I started to smile a little again. As I closed my eyes, I feel like in this dark room, there is a special candle that keeps me companied attracting the smile to stay on my face while it lets the loneliness & the darkness away. S, his the special candle, my special candle that can never be replaced. Like I said.. I'm not in love, I'm just interested to wanting to know him more, go deep into his life & feel his heart.

But with life so busy, how can we meet? I was thinking to sit down on the beach & let the stars & the moon accompany us while we talk about ourselves & let mother nature help us out with a touch from the wind, the sound of waves crashing on the beach & the feeling of hard sand rubbed in our hands to release this pain that have been caged in our broken-heart. Guess I can't with him so busy. But at least I get to talk to him now, sweet that his waiting for me to finish updating my blog then we can continue messaging. I guess there is nothing to talk about much now. I'll update soon. Have a very goodnight.

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