Karma is my game

Dreams.

Some dreams are worth it when they are left with meanings while others are just a waste when they are left empty

Opened my eyes & I found myself standing on top of a white fluffy cloud. I looked around & I quickly walk right at the edge of the cloud trying to see where am I exactly but I can only see a big blue sea. Not even one Country or an Island is around. I sat, thinking of what to do or is there any choices available in my mind but the answer is just nothing. I was about to shed a tear when I heard a voice, a familiar voice. As I listened to it carefully, the voice was getting closer & closer & as I turned around to see who it was, my jaw literally dropped cause it was none other than Katy Perry. My heart beats like crazy & I almost fall on my knees cause I can't believe what I'm seeing. She smiled at me & she wore exactly like the one she sang on Fireworks official video.

As soon as I blinked, I was in a building in the middle of the night with Katy Perry of course. The first thing is, I looked around to see where am I exactly cause this place looks so familiar. Then suddenly, I heard someone started singing & when I turned, Katy Perry was looking at me while singing the song named Fireworks. I was lost, seriously. Then as she sang, she walk to me & stood right beside me. I covered my face with my hands cause I can't believe what is happening & as soon as I let my hands down, I was shocked to see that we're in a crowd. She was still singing though & was still looking at me while she sang, then she just turned away & looked at someone else. I was trying to find who was she looking at & as soon as I found who it was, my jaw totally dropped while my mind repeatedly says "Oh my god."

It was Syakirchner, he was sitting on the red sofa & now he's walking through the crowd while his eyes locked at someone. Then suddenly he stopped & was standing right in front of a guy who was sitting down while he was chatting with his friends. I was amazed to see that the guy who was sitting down was none other than his lover, Mile. I was giggling cause I find it kind of funny but at the same time cute cause I can see Sya's head going forward to Mile & as soon as Mile turned around, their lips touched & their chests suddenly let out fireworks. I smiled while looking at them both kissing. I thought it was just a soft kiss til I saw Sya letting out his tongue. I smacked my forehead while saying, "Oh boy." Then they both looked at me & laughed.

Suddenly, Katy Perry pulled my hand & she opened the door & I was shocked to see that we're in the middle of a stadium now. Gosh, can this be more complicated? She pulled me til we were in the middle & she was still singing her song. Everyone gathered around us & they were dancing while fireworks came shooting out from their chests. Katy Perry looked at me then told me not to look down on myself & just open my heart & let the world see the beauty inside it cause it ain't worth hiding it. I looked down while my eyes was flooded with tears & she suddenly held her hand under my chin & let my chin up, making me faced her & she said,"You are beautiful." While giving me a kiss on my cheek.

Then I woke up, I was on a bed in a room & Mile was sitting right beside me. He then smiled & Sya came in from the room door. I got out of the bed & they both kept staring while smiling at me. I covered my face & was hurt cause I did planned not to see anyone yet. Then Sya held out a mirror & told me to take a look & so I did. I took a peek & I was amazed to see that my face was flawless, not even a scar or a mark to be seen. A tear fall from my right eye & Sya quickly wanted to hug me when I got awake by someone, it was my aunt. She woke me up cause granny needs my help. She told me to print 15 papers from the paper that she have given me cause her supervisor needs it. I was cranky so I just took the paper & grumpily walk out of the house without even taking a shower. I wondered, does the dream have a meaning behind it or was it just plain empty? Found this on a certain website.

When someone appears in your dreams, it's because that person misses you.
- Psychological fact

So goodbye readers, til the next update.

Labels: Dreams

Gone.

I thought no one cares & is not going to look for me so I just leave everything, trying to be gone til one fine night when someone beeped me & told me how worried he was when I've gone missing so I guess my thoughts are just sentence with empty meanings after all

"Where were you? I've been looking for you & I'm so worried, I thought you were really gone." The thoughts that I have been keeping in my mind all this time quickly fades away as soon as I read what had appeared on the laptop screen. Syakirchner, my stain, the one that I used to love deeply & the one that I used to wait for months but in the end, the result showed friendship. A beautiful soul that you will never forget as soon as he touches your life. I guess what I've been keeping inside my mind is just sentence with empty meanings. Tears started piling up when I read the rest of the sentences that he had wrote on the screen. My heart started to turn warm again & my life started to show some light. I thought when I leave everything & just be gone, no one will ever look for me & will ever care about me at all but out of a million people in this world, at least one human being is looking everywhere for me & is really worried. Even though it's just only one person who cares for me, at least I get to feel the care & concern that he is giving. I guess, every human being who lives in this world have at least felt that he/she is really a something after all, rather than nothing.

But as soon as he asked me if everything's alright, my mind quickly played a flashback of what have happened two days ago while my lips stayed shut. Those sharp words that can make my ears go deaf. The cold tears flowing through my cracked cheeks. Oh all the sharp pain that is cutting through my aching heart slowly but painfully. The moment of truth & lies spilled out so fast that I almost wanted to run out of the room, go to the kitchen & take a sharp knife & just cut through my skinny arm deeply letting it bleed with oozing blood but I didn't & I just bear with the pain by listening to all those bloody words that she has shot me while my mind was imaging a picture of a sharp knife.

Then it all ends with a cracked face full of tears & a fragile heart that have been smashed to bits. That very day will I never forget the moment of truth & lies, & that very day will my heart never smile like how my lips smile when my ears have heard the words of beauty from a soul's soft lips. I'm done, I'll end my story til here cause it just hurts reading those hurting moments in my mind. So I leave now with holding tears & a broken heart til the very next update.

P.S: I'm missing all my sweetest gay clans & my fav. gaygirl. I want to meet & give you drugs my very warm hugs but it's just not the right time & I'm sorry. I hope you drugs understand, I love you all, forever & always. Take care of yourselves alright cause I'm not there watching your every step.

Labels: Gone

Beauty.

Beneath this Imperfect boy lies a heart of beauty

Standing in front of the mirror & my mind came running. Look at those cracks all around my face, those bags that are coloured black hanging under my eyes, the burning cigarette that I'm holding between my two thin fingers, the straight outline of my body from top to bottom. Don't I look imperfect? Of course, everyone is imperfect in this world & that is just damn perfect. But then where is the beauty that I need, the un-flaws which suppose to be spreading all around my skin & the outline curves which suppose to be drawn on my side. I asked again, will all those things I asked for happen? The answer to my question quickly hit my mind & it showed 'Impossible'. But even if the beauty that I wished for so much won't ever happened, at least I know now where the beauty lies & the answer is my heart.

Look at how I make granny smile by being a full-time housebottom cleaning the house, washing & hanging the laundries, not being rude by holding all my harsh words back while granny throw all her outrage all around the house & I just go cooling her down & how I console my 8 long years of sweet friendship named Feeza when she's so down with cold sour tears falling right beneath her eyes, carrying along a huge problem with her on that bright afternoon. Can't you see? That shows how beautiful a human being can be even though the ugliness is sticking on his body. So my point is, don't look down on yourself but instead love yourself before loving others cause if you don't, no one can do their part if you kept hating yourself. Put those hurting words aside & let your mind fly as high as the sky, you don't need another beauty to make your life shine cause you already got one & that is right in your heart. Can you feel the beauty that you make, erasing the sadness & drawing a smile on their faces? Yes, that is beautiful seeing a human being smile rather than seeing them hurt, cry, or even rage out of anger. Even though it hurts having a cracked face, at least you owned a beautiful heart so just continue making people smile & trust me, all your pain & sadness that you're carrying all this while will just fade along with theirs.

Don't trust me? Then why do I even bother using all my precious time posting this out on my lovely blog? Think again. I'm done typing what I want to say so goodnight my lovely readers til the next update.

Labels: beauty

Two-faces.

Some human beings can be pretentious by being friendly in front of you but then is the other way round at the back of you

Jaw constantly dropped after seeing what have appeared on the screen in Facebook recent post. Those similar words, even though there aren't names inserted in the sentence but the sentence he wrote are exactly the same as what I wrote to him but then he exaggerate it even more. My temper exploded right as soon as the boiler got heated by the raging fire cause this is the 3rd time he have created a problem with me but this time, he have crossed my gay damn line & this is just too much. Trying to play the Winning & Losing game? Sorry but those are just for immature & I hope he realized that doing all of this is such a childish act. A 17-year-old having a child's brain? Oh gosh, this is so embarrassing. Please act like a 17-year-old cause seriously the child's brain attitude is not needed in my life or in anybody elses. Even though his status have made a lot of thumbs up to people but still, he don't need to boast it off. To be frank here, I think my mindset is much more mature than him. Like come on, what's his motive in doing all this? Trying to seek attention?

Gosh, this is a load of crap & it deserve to be thrown away into the rubbish dump. Just two words from me, grow up & stop posting that 'Instant Karma' video cause seriously I think it's for you. Why must it be for me if I didn't do anything bad? Don't use my word if you do not know how to use it wisely. I think the word 'stupid' you're trying to label to me have just obviously proven that it reflects on you. Sorry but I don't entertain people like you cause people like you don't deserve to be in my life. You want to make more friends? I think you should upgrade your mind first before wanting to step into the popularity zone. Ooops, I think I got it all wrong. Let me rephrase it, you seriously should upgrade your mind before wanting to step into the next level. I think I'm done what I want to say here.

Oh & I forgot to insert this, next time please don't label me a friend if you want to be a two-face cause I don't take two-face people in my list & using my name & one of my clan's name just so you can be in our clan is such a desperate thing to do. Goodbye low boy.

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Losing.

And the most scariest thing that can ever make me scream is not seeing a spirit appearing right in front of me, losing you is the answer to my scariest thing

Look at how granny smiles. Her sweet laughter & her wrinkly smile makes my heart feel so calm. I can feel that her heart is fresh red now cause she has been wanting to get a house for my 2 aunts, herself & me to stay cause believe me, living in that heartless creature house is like a nightmare. No TV, & no touching of their furniture, plates, food & even drinks. Such heartless people don't you think? We can only do our laundries & take a shower. The paying of the rent is so costly, we can find a room that's cheaper than this. Such a small room & such a huge amount of money that needs to be paid. I believe that this kind of human beings just want money & greedy is the word that we should label on them. Well, we're done with them & we can turn over a new leaf now. I can't believe that the nightmare is actually over I mean all those times all of us have been suffering have officially ended. The only thing now that I have to do is to change myself. It's been months have I not met my dance-mates & I kind of miss them to bits but it's like I'm not proving myself & the world that I'm changing. Lazing around at home all day is what I have been doing & that proves nothing. Bravo me. I wonder how's Shadan & Naim has been doing. Kind of miss them both but I miss Shadan a lot more. Ooops. Guess I ought to be going cause there's nothing more to talk about.

Goodbye lovely readers & before I leave, I would like to say that I miss my Sweetest Gay Clans: Hafiz, Shariman, Raihan, Syakirchner, Mile, Terence, Tiara Khai Khai, & Sulaiman. Not to forget my sweetest chic, Feeza & of course the last but not least, my favourite gay girl, Eeks. I'm done what I got to say. Goodnight.

P.S: I'm sorry if I can't have night calls with you like we used to but I'm busy & my health is not in a very good condition so if you're a true friend, kindly understand what I'm going through now & please don't be too down cause I know you're strong. There's no point letting your emotions down cause nothing changes so just try to distract yourself alright? It works on me. Lots of hugs from me to you.

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Longing.

I miss the way your soft lips touches my pink lips & then we start playing our tongue in our mouth

The whole day at home with eyes on the laptop, Twitter & Facebook. Night is here & it still young. Do not know what to do on a long holiday. I'm just waiting for my fringe to cover my eyes so that I can reborn it & color it after a week. That is my main point & this time I won't trim off my fringe. Next year I'm going to ITE school & I do not know exactly how it feels like & what to start first. Gosh, a lot of things are in my head. I can't believe that I'm really growing up. It's like time passes by too fast & I'm not ready for ITE. Well too bad, since I want to get out of my secondary school life so much, now is the time. Gonna make new friends, & new enemies gonna appear that's for sure. It's been a few weeks & I'm kind of miss romance now. Gosh, where have all the cute boys go? Hah, guess I need to date again huh? Naaa, I'm tired. No one wants me anyway. Whatever it is, I still love myself & nothing can change that. I have nothing more to update. The main point why I blogged is that I miss romance which involves kissing, that's all. Goodbye.

Labels: Longing

Silent.

Hear me out, everything seems so silent without you here now. It's like the trees have gone dead

Laying down on my soft bed. Tired after meeting Raihan, Hafiz & Eeks which is a last minute plan with that Gay Girl. Gosh, the night is still young. Look at that crescent moon. Isn't it beautiful? I can't imagine how sweet & romantic can it be if I were to watch with my future lover. Have just finish reading my book: Perfect Love Imperfect Relationship. It's lovetastic. You should read it up. It teaches you how to face your negative emotions & how to get over it. It's like they're teaching you how to control your emotions & glad to know I can control em' now. It's like I have a strong heart now. No more crying & getting so broken always. Well about crying, let me rephrase it, less crying now. That's more better.

First time meeting Eeks was kind of great. We have a little conversation of our own. Such embarrassing to meet her in a slack manner & not ready way. Gosh, my hair. It is so messy & long & I was wearing all black with my black headband. Can't imagine. She was awesome with pink shirt. Raihan & Hafiz was having their gay talk of course while I still continue talking with Eeks but too bad all of it lasted a little while. All of us need to head off. Me, Raihan & Hafiz head home while Eeks head to meet Syakir & Hady back. Such a gay night. I mean Raihan, Hafiz, Myself, then Eeks is meeting Syakir, Hady & not to forget, Eypul, that most awesome hotilicious guy ever. Damn, if only his mine, I swear I'll love him. Well too bad his taken now. Eeks have met a lot of gayboys in one night. Congrats for her. Now I'm going off. Update again next time. Goodbye readers.

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Describe your most perfect day.

My most perfect day would be at the side of the beach with a book about Love on my hand & some snacks with a blanket under my buttocks while watching the sun sets & the wind blows smoothly through my face.

Strike your question & I'll strike my answer

Nothing.

All those romance that we have done is not for the sake of Love but it's just for your satisfaction & that makes me feel guilty for letting you use my body

Everything turns out wrong. I just realized that what we have done is not because of us falling in the love process. No, but we're just doing it just for the sake of your needs. What was I thinking? I feel so guilty. I can feel that there's no Love at all & all the french kissing that I have done with you is all so insincere, everything. I don't have that fun feeling but I can't believe that I just go with the flow. This is all wrong. Don't you feel that everything that we did is just not right? I'm just into Love too much that what we did is totally not part of it. I guess I have to stop thinking about it & just move on cause I can't change what have past. Goodbye.

Labels: nothing

Kitten.

Their big eyes & their cute pinky nose never fail to make me smile

Been wanting to have a pet. Not a small hamster, not a beautiful bird, & not colorful fishes but a cute fluffy kitten. Kittens love being pampered by their owners & their cute naughty attitude just can't make them go mad on em when they did something wrong but instead just give them a little spank on their cute buttocks & give em a kiss on their forehead. But the cutest part is that they'll let their small ears down while giving the kitty face & a few small meows when they want food. You can't stop but just stare at their faces when they want something. It's like Puss in Boots in the movie in Shrek 2. I just can't stop imagining having a kitten in my house & once I have it, I'll buy for it anything just like the previous pets that I used to have. Will have a research about them in the library & I'll just forget about the world. It's like they're my lovers, but a pure black or white Persian kitten is what I love & want. I know this will be hard to find but I'll try to check it out in pet shops or in streets that I know where there's kittens playing around. If you guys have a kitten that I wanted, do tell me in the Chatterbox cause I desperately want it. Thank you & goodbye.

Labels: kitten

Tears.

Don't keep those tears, just let them fall til your eyes are done & your blue heart will turn red again cause even though it doesn't change the reality, at least it will change your heart

People nowadays believe that crying & letting your tears fall doesn't help at all cause it won't change anything. Well it's true that it can't change anything that already have past but at least it can turn that blue heart of yours into red again. Just let em go & don't hold those tears cause if you do, you'll get hurt even more. Sometimes it'll take time for you to get over things so just get yourself distracted & don't just sit around in your room thinking about it. Crying helps but just don't cry too much unless you want your head to start throbbing & your face to start appearing red dots. Like I said, get yourself distracted & believe me you'll be alright after a few days or weeks, just don't stop whatever you're doing. I've been going through this before, in fact a lot of times til I hurt myself but in order for me to not get hurt, I just get myself distracted by dancing, hanging out with friends in town or just sit down at the side of the beach & look up at the bright night sky full with dazzling stars. I know nowadays a lot of teens nowadays have been so emotional due to Love. Just let it go, get yourself distracted & you'll be alright.

It's almost Sunset & I'm still at home lying on my soft bed while something is on my mind. I can't stop but just feel guilty. I feel like letting this tears go but I managed to suck it up & swallow it whole. I'm sorry S for raising my voice & being rude to you yesterday night when we're on the phone, I just can't take your harsh words. I mean you just do not know how to watch that poison mouth of yours. If you didn't shoot me, I think none of us will start the war. I just can't take it facing this problems of mine & I just needed you to make me feel better but then, you thought I was in love with you & there you started saying "I'm not your boyfriend so don't expect me to call you." You could at least tell me nicely then just shooting me those sentence. You said you understand my emotions that they are sensitive but if you do understand em, why must you be so harsh towards me. My heart bleed as soon as you started damning me.

I guess you can't really change & not to worry, my love for you have so long fade away since after you said that you prefer to be in many relationships rather than one & you will never believe Love. You're just so different than the rest of the men I've knew don't you realized that & that is so disappointing. I just hope one day your heart will start to believe the most beautiful feeling that have ever been created in this world by nature, & that feeling is Love.

Labels: tears

Longing.

My lonely soul is longing for Love

Sun rise. Opened my eyes, checked my phone & there's 4 missed calls & 3 messages from my clans but none from S or even N. N have stopped messaging me since yesterday night I do not know why but it's alright. Guess he's not interested with me anymore. I'm lucky that I only have a tiny crush on him cause once my pink heart for him turns red, I think emotions will come striking again. I knew that he's not interested in me cause no one is so no point putting high hopes on someone even if you know he have feelings for you. That's me alright, no high hopes. S have been busy due to exam & he didn't call me up at all & I miss him very much. I feel like his leaving me when his not. I tend to have negative thoughts but I know that all of those aren't gonna be real so I just try ignore it. Yesterday evening I went to Tampines Park just to release all my negative emotions but it didn't work out at all. I guess Parks doesn't work on me no more, the only place that I can release all of this negative emotions is at the side beach in the middle of the night where you can feel the wind blowing through your face.

My heart started to turn blue & it starts to long for Love. I wanna shed tears just by thinking of it. I feel so cold, so lonely, it's like no one's there for me when I know that my lovely friends are always there for me. This always happen to me & it goes on & off & on & off. I really hate this. It's been almost a year since I didn't get to feel Love. What am I supposed to do? I wanna cry my eyes off but I know I can't. I just can't take the pain, it hurts. Tried to disguised the pain but it kept showing more & more & that's where I wanna let my tears fall even more. S, please call me up... I can't take the pain. I need you to cheer me up on the phone like you always did. Where are you when I need you the most? Can't you feel that my heart is in pain?

Labels: Longing

Useless.

She said that he's a useless child & his tears starts falling

"You are such a useless child! Such a liar." Those were the words she threw & my heart got poisoned by it. I just pretend that everything is okae, pretend that I wasn't feeling the pain, pretend that nothing happened but just so you know, deep in this fragile heart of mine, I'm crying. They won't let me rest til everything's done & yes, I didn't rest but only just a few seconds. My aunt scolded her husband not to carry those heavy boxes & just let me do those things by myself & I was shocked but still her husband ignored her cause he himself knows that I won't be able to carry such a heavy box so he continued carrying them & loading them in the truck. Didn't told my relatives that I was having fever, I just kept it inside, not wanting to tell them cause I know if I did, they'll think I'm just complaining. So I just continued going up & down the stairs not using the lift til a few hours later my body got too tired & I just have to use the lift. Got up back & as I was about to carry the next one, someone called me up. I answered my phone, then one of my aunt which hates me a lot started to insult me, told me to hung up the phone & quickly carry those things down. I just hung up & ignored her. She still continued insulting & mocking me & her "best" friend & one of her daughters started to laugh. Just continued my work & ignored them.

Then when I was walking down with the box, someone called me up, I looked at my phone & it wasn't in my contact list so I just picked up wondering who will call me at this hour & so I did. Hello was the first word he said & I said hello back. His background was so noisy, it's like his not alone. Maybe he is with his friends? He asked whether do I know who is he talking to & of course my answer was a no. Told him that I got to go & I'll call him back, whoever he is & we both hung up. So I just continued moving all those things & my phone rang. Looked at my phone & it was a message from that unknown guy & he just said hi. Kind of smile a little bit I don't know why & I just replied, are you a prankster cause if you are then I won't wanna entertain you. Then I just placed my phone in my pocket & get back to work. Everything's almost done so I checked my phone & there's two messages from him & the first one was, I'm not a prankster... I'm a gangster & the second one was a poem & then there's this sentence that he type out before he wrote my name, "Senyum senyum selalu zairul". That sentence, I know who it was, my SG bestfriend, N. That cute guy, oh gosh. He have my number & it's a confirm he took my number from S. Smiled after reading it & there is his name right below. At least he made my night.

So I just continued my work & after a few hours later, everything's done. We all have loaded the things into the lorry & they drove off. My granny, my two aunts & I took a cab to our new crib & we reached there before the lorry so while waiting for the lorry to arrive, we move the things up to our crib. I was too tired, but still I just continued til almost about an hour, I just went up to my crib & rest. So darn tired & I asked my aunt to place her hand on my neck & she said that I'm having a fever. I nodded & said to her that I'm too tired, then granny came calling my phone & I picked up. She damn me so badly saying that I'm useless as always & she just hung up. I just hold on to my tears & I told my aunt about it. This aunt of mine is not like any others. She understands me cause she used to be like me. I called up Hafiz & I was begging to him to help me out cause I really can't take it, Hafiz was so tired so he said that he will be on his way. Thank him a lot of time & we hung up. Told my aunt about it & she called my granny just to inform her about it. Then they argued on the phone & of course my aunt was trying to make her facts right, not siding anyone though. After the arguement, she hung up & she went up at the 6th floor where the things are being placed there.

She talk to my aunt & her girlfriend, telling them that this is just a last minute plan so why must everyone get so pissed off. Everyone's sick including me she said & she just continue talking to them while I just carry the things down to the crib. After about an hour, hafiz called & he said that he have reached. I hung up & went down the stairs. Saw him with granny & I told him to follow me up to the 6th floor. So we went up & I introduce him to my aunts. Then we just get back to moving the things. After another hour, I seriously got very tired & my hands were all aching red. I was complaining to Hafiz how weak my body is & I can't manage this but he just told me to hold on & bear with it just a bit more cause we're almost done & so I did. Aunt call up the Macdonald to order some food & drinks for us. Then after about half an hour, the Mac delivery man arrived & he gave us our food & drinks & my aunt held out the money & gave it to him. They sat down with granny & drank & I stand one side with hafiz. Talk to him for awhile & my granny suddenly called my name. I answered & went to her & she started to damn me again. I just talk back to her nicely & then she damn me even more. I hold on to my tears & continue moving the things down. Can't believe what she had just said. "Useless child, no wonder your mother kick you out, because of your attitude."

When I got down, tears came falling from my eyes. Then I just hold it & swallow it back. Don't wanna show that I'm in pain. About a few hours later, I went up & I saw my aunt was vomiting at the corner & they all went down leaving me & Hafiz to do the job. Only left with 3 or 4 more, so we continued moving the things down together, one by one we carry it down. When we reached to my crib, my granny told us that she & my aunt's girlfriend will take my aunt to the hospital cause of what happen so she told us to move it all in then once we're done, I need to call her up. I just went in & they went off. Hafiz & I just went up to the 6th floor again & carry all those things down. After 30mins, we only left with one more furniture. We went back up with my 12-year-old aunt & Hafiz & I carried the furniture down. Told my aunt to give me a boost & she did. Feel a bit more lighter now & we all carry it down to the crib. Done everything & told my aunt to text granny that we're done & we need to head off. Then granny called, I picked up & told her we need to go. Granny thank me & Hafiz for helping her then we hung up & Hafiz & I took a cab to his home. Reached home, wash up, went to his room & lay my head on the pillow. Hafiz placed his hand on my neck & he said that my body temperature is burning hot. I smiled while my body was shivering & I close my eyes, wandering off to my dreams.

Woke up & now here I am sitting down in the room still feeling weak. Going out alone later to just release out my stress & will be back home at night. Look at my hands & gosh, the redness is still the there & so is the pain. Whatever it is, now you know that how badly I'm treated & still I just suck it up & pretend nothing happened. I know that I need to be strong cause if I don't, I won't be here now, typing what is happening around me.

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