Dear Fireflies.

I apologize for going away without any notes or signs left behind. Many things happened and I can not balance up with every single thing in my life so I just had to run away from everything. I do not want anyone to know that I am troubled by my own problems. I almost wanted to give everything up while going through it alone. But now I know, I can go through this by standing for my rights and not bear all the bloody way. Enough kindness and being all-so-nice towards everyone when I know I will get shits from some of em' in the end.

I left school, I left work so I will not be schooling for this year again. I have lost a number of people in my life and that is for the better. I do not need anymore betrayals, rumors, dramas or anything that can caused pain in my life. I have gone through the pain, so now I am back cause I know that I can only go through life with my true dear Fireflies around me. And this time, I will not leave [ I hope ]. Every cold night, I will always dream about you all and it hurts me not getting to feel the sweet presence, hear the cute laughter and that bitchy gossips from you lovely souls.\

Please forgive me for I have made all of you worried sick and I really do not mean it, honest. I just do not want to trouble anyone. This is who I am. So please do accept me for my flaws and all. Once again, I apologize from the bottom of my heart.

Yours faithfully,

Zairul