Karma is my game

Drowning.

Drowning in my life of misery, struggling to get out of this heavy pain, all alone with no one to grab me out of this tangled situation

It's been long since I've updated this blog of mine. Apologies for not updating it. Many things happened so fast like in the nick of time. I'm struggling to get out of the misery. At times, my emotions got queered when I'm in a place where there's only silent roaming around cause then, my mind will start contemplating about that beautiful love. These past few weeks, it has been a disaster. For so long I have not teared for someone & a sweet cute looking guy used me up & made the depression run through me.

He claimed that it wasn't his fault at all. I admit that I was at fault partially but why is he putting all the blame on me? I didn't make that first move, everything got so wrong. No development of sparks, nothing positive.. But just the development of melancholy. I wish it didn't happened at all. I did regret it at first but then, it already happened so I'm just moving on taking step by step, gone through the process of tearing, heartbreaking, forgetting about it, everything that needs to be done. It's always both parties who are at fault, never one sided.

He's the first & the last guy who I want to do such physical things that no love will occur. All I could say is, it is hard to trust men in this world. Just be careful cause you might not know how weak & vulnerable your heart can be after things have happened between you & that heartless soul. It really hurts while you're suffering that melancholy sticking to your heart. I know that, it's going to be the last one I'm going to face in that very day cause I can trust no man in this very world, my heart & soul is forbidden from them. Nothing will crack this hard shell of mine. I won't be on my knees feeling weak any longer due to man, I know I won't... For now.

My working life has been a very terrible one. The people there are all so biased just because I'm not the same race as them. They want me to get out of the job real bad. Well, all I could say is, I really dislike this job, I really want to get out of it & I will. But I need to replace this job cause I really need money to support myself. Money doesn't buy happiness, It eases your misery. Keep that in your mind. Just pray for me that I'll get another job soon.

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