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Monday, February 28, 2011
The heart.  I want your hard body to lean against mine while we look into each others' eyes, slowly letting our lips meet cause the heart misses the way how we touch & make love while I pull your delicate hair through the cold night Alone in the living room, once again I couldn't lay my hands off this laptop cause it is a must for updating this dear blog of mine. My mind came wandering off thinking of him, his soft lips, how our lips met when we're on the comfy bed, his mesmerizing eyes, how he look into mine til I can't lay off of his, & how I pull his soft delicate hair as soon as his wet tongue went down from my neck to my hard chest. The breathing goes heavy when this mind came playing of how we make love on the comfy bed through that cold night. It went so passionately, so smoothly like I'm the only boy in his world. The satisfaction was there, the love I had given him was so strong, I could feel it through this warm heart of mine but what about his? I wonder. Well, I should just stop thinking about it cause there's not a doubt that the love he had for me once will be resurrected back again. Though this caused my heart to shatter but the only way left I can only do is just to lift up my feet & take a step forward, making my way through the beautiful or painful future. I have meet up the ones who have touched my life with beautiful colors & that are my dear gay family. Hugs & tears were involved & truly I miss them a lot too. My heart feel a lot more lighter when I met those family of mine.Yes, I will do my best not to disappear myself again, just hope for me that I'll be alright when I go through this painful journey in my life, just don't ever forget to hold my hand tight, never letting go cause without you all, I'm weak, insecure & lonely. I am a boy who owned a weak soul, a fragile heart & a negative mind but with you beautiful souls around, I now owned, a strong soul, a heart of steel & a bright positive mind. You souls enlightened me with all your love & your surroundings. How can I not be grateful of what God have given me? Just want to say that I'm thankful for everything you dear souls have done for me & I wish I can repay all your kindness & everything you all have done for me. Before I shut this laptop down, I would like to especially thank to my only beloved gay brother, Dudy Monteiro for everything. Just read my soft lips, captured it & locked it into that heart of yours cause dear brother, you're the only one that no one can ever replace to shine my fragile heart even when I have fallen from my knees & got a shattered heart. You're the only one who can mend this broken heart & burn all the negative emotions away. I truly love you from the center of my heart, forever your name will always be tattooed right at the center of it. I'll never forget you even if a massive argument will caused us to move on in separate ways. I'll always remember on how you've helped me when I'm in need of an extra hand, you were always there. I can see it through your eyes that you did your very best til a tear can be shed right at this moment. Just hope we'll last til we have to set this souls go. Labels: Heart |
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