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Saturday, January 1, 2011
Chapter 2011.  And the very first day of 2011 is the day I shed tears with all the pain running through this heart of mine Turned on the tap of the shower. Played a heartbroken song on my phone setting it to play repeatedly. Let the water run on me while I just stand there watching at some of the 2010 flashbacks my mind have played. Some were as sweet as candy while others were as painful as a cut on my wrist, bleeding. Kept thinking about it, then I just crouch on the ground, crying while a part on this memory in my mind was playing. I feel like going back but I can't. I just need to accept what have past & just look forward for 2011. I am really longing for the sweet memories, with him. Cuddling together on the bed, get long hugs & forehead kisses from him every time & get to sleep right into his arms til I open my eyes the very next day & the first thing I saw is just him sleeping soundly beside me. But I know all these are just past & never will it brings to the future. I know he have long so over me & for that I should really stop thinking about the past in a quiet place alone where I should just look ahead to the future instead. What's past is past, now it's time to smile & step into the future. I'm going to miss him though. 5 months hanging by Love & 5 months wasted. Nothing changes, he doesn't give a damn about me anymore. I just want to say farewell. Be strong & smile always cause I am no longer there for you anymore. I really love you but I've got to let you go for the sake of my heart & of course the future. You know that I deserve better than this cause it really kills me getting my heart tangled on you. May you have a soul to make your heart shine, giving you a smile on your face every time & make you feel loved sincerely. Zairul Labels: book |
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