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Saturday, December 4, 2010
Drunk. 
At last, sitting on the beach where I can feel the hard sand with my bare hands with the wind blowing through my face & hear the waves crashing to the side of the beach on a cold night. Lilly introduced me to her friends & I thought they were some kind of people who have the 'mat-rep' attitude, but they aren't & they are so much fun to hang out with. They were drunk of course & they gave me a few cups til the bottle is done, felt a little bit tipsy but then I just carry on by doing some snorts on the bottle after Lilly have done with some burning on the bottle. Then she got tired, so I burn it on my own til the liquor is all done. I want more still but there isn't anymore liquors instead there was 2 tin cans of beers so I just drank some & the effect starts to begin. Was talking crap & wrote his name on the sand using my leg, then sat down on the blanket & started to write his name on the sand again. Thought that by drinking it will let him off my mind for awhile but instead he ruled over my mind. I almost shed a tear but then I controlled my emotions & try to be happy instead. So Lilly's friends asked me some questions about gays & I answered all of their questions of course. They told me to be straight instead & I told them that I'll think about it. Even Lilly wanted me to promise to her that I'll change myself but I didn't promise of course. A lot of people wanted me to change myself. Kind of disappointed cause it's like they don't love you for who you are, but it's alright. I will, one day but not now or later. Just wait til I'm 24, I guess? Anyway, I lie down on Lilly's lap cause my eyes can hardly open & she adviced me not to lie down or else I'll vomit later on. Didn't listened to her & just continue lying down on her lap til after a few hours, I woke up & quickly crawled to one side & vomitted quite a lot. Apologies to Lilly for I have not listened to your advice. Damn, I don't know why after I vomitted, I kept calling for 'A' & kept asking Lilly for her phone cause I wanted to call him but she wouldn't let me of course when instead I just knew him & met him just once[ Not the the one that I wrote on the sand of course ]? Quite weird though, but I didn't think about it too much & checked the time, it was 6:00am. So we head off home by taking the cab & Lilly told me to lie down on her lap, so without any questions asked, I quickly lie down on her lap while she stroke my hair[ favourite ]. Then finally reached Braddell & we got off the cab, gave Lilly a goodbye hug & I head off home by train. While half-way reaching to Yishun, the feeling of vomitting started to appear again so I departed at Yio Chu Kang station & vomitted at the side. Damn, such embarrassment. Waited for the next train & it arrived after a min, then I just boarded the train. Was trying not to vomit again til I finally reached Yishun, quickly tapped out & walk home briskly. Finally reached home, throw all my stuff at the side & quickly lie on the bed covering my whole self with a blanket. Seriously, I shouldn't have drank liquor & then beer together even though it will give you the kick quickly cause it will let you vomit quickly too. Lesson learnt & what a very bad day I should say. Shouldn't have drink, not because of the vomitting & the pounding on my head. It's because that I already have the opportunity to sit on the beach on a cold night with the stars just to set all the emotions free, but it turned out that the emotions are still in me cause I've waste that opportunity. Labels: Drunk |
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