Karma is my game

Familiar Faces.

A face that can remind souls of a thousand people is what I call unique

Dear readers,

Sorry for not updating my blog this past few weeks due to some major problems that have been living with me & so it caused my mood to runaway. But now my mood is starting to come back home so I guess I'll start to blog again & besides, I miss blogging about my emotions, my dreadful life & my sweetest clans that have been in my life all this time. Thanks sweet loves.

Had a great prom yesterday night but I went off half way meeting my sweetest gay clans. We slacked around & make loud noises like we owned this place. And there was somebody new in our clan named Dudy which I've never met before though I've seen his Facebook profile once but have no intention to even add him [ cause I don't add people even if they're hot as hell :) ]. Realized that when I didn't look at him almost everytime, I can see him staring at me at the corner of my eyes. Of course I just ignored & continue what I wanna do. After slacking, they head off first & went partying while I just sit outside alone in the mean time... While I was waiting for the right time, my mind kept imaging his face & playing back all the sweet moments that I had with him.

Tears were rising & heart went aching. It got me pressured out of the blue & I feel like knocking his face off my mind using a deadly hammer & after that stabbing my heart with a sharp knife to stop this feeling from making my vulnerable heart ache. Then suddenly I saw Hafiz got out to take me in & I just went in, partying with them, trying to let my soul off my broken heart & mind. Dance off with some crump-ing, hip-hopping & a little touch of vogue & not to forget a sprinkle of kpop moves too was added til my mind got blank. So just chill dance with the rest instead & when partying is almost over, Raihan head off home first by cab while the rest of us walk to the bus stop where our Night Rider buses always stop at. While walking, Dudy & I had a conversation & seriously we have a lot in common. Our interest, our stains & our personality are mostly the same. Shocking right?

When nearing to the bus stop, we saw the bus for Syakir, Mile, & Terence have arrived first & so they head off quickly while waving goodbye to us. Then behind their bus, is our bus which have just arrived & so Dudy & I gave a goodbye hug to Hafiz then straight away we went in the bus. Sat at the last row with Dudy & we chatted again. Then when he looked at my side, he was shocked & I got confused. Asked him why & he say that my side look almost like him, that's why he kept staring at me cause it's like he's staring at his own reflection. We chatted a bit more, til some of our secrets spill out from our own mouth & we make it that it's only for us to know & for our mouth to shut up. Smiled & we planned to hang out some time since we got common interest & since our problems are much likely the same so why not we hang out together, be hurt together, be in tears together & slash our wrists together using different penknives of course [ kidding ]. Then his stop has arrived & so before he left, we gave each other a goodbye hug & he step out of the bus, waving goodbye to me.

As soon as the bus drove off, my heart got cold again & tears went falling from my eyes. Was looking at his picture on my phone with blue music flowing through my ears. Wondering if he's alright, wondering whether he's smiling & am wondering where is he right now cause my broken heart can't stop worrying about him. How I wish I had just one more chance to look into his eyes & see him looking back, I would tell him I've been missing & loving him still since the day he went away. My stop have arrived & I departed, walking back home slowly while little touches from the wind went through touching my delicate skin. Looked up at the night sky & it was full of grey clouds with not a single star seen winking on the sky. Reached home & lie on my soft bed, covering my whole self with a big long blanket like I always did to show to the world that all the negative emotions & moments I had is hiding in me cause I wouldn't want to share all this painful scars to anyone but instead I just hide it & pretend that everything is always going to be fine... Even though he have hurt me with the hurting words & just leave me hanging for another soul, I will still love him til the very last breath.

Labels: Faces

zairul is my name &
karma is my game.

His Quote:

what goes around with me comes around you.

Sweetest Ecstasy

♦ Dudy Monteiro.
♦ Dudy's Tumblr.
♦ Hafiz Pendek.
♦ Subhi Illiyyin.
♦ Syakirchner Elise.
♦ Hedi Kikomori.
♥ Jaselin Gemok.
♥ Frah Anne.
♥ Maia Panda.
♥ Yidah Twinny.
♥ Farna Bimbo.
♥ Uffie Aosyki.
♥ Echa Boncet.
♦ Syairul Adams.
♦ Fyzzstro.

Individuals

Amelina.
Azmy.
Belle.
Din.
Echa.
Eicha.
Eydah.
Faizahh.
Fie.
Fir.
Irzan.
Ita.
Jaja.
Mei Ting.
Naim.
Natasha.
Nini.
Nisa.
Pearl.
Qayyum.
Rush.
Shah.
Shasha.
Shaq.
Sheeqeen.
Teko.
Yourlanda.
Yusry.
Zaidi.

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