Karma is my game

Useless.

She said that he's a useless child & his tears starts falling

"You are such a useless child! Such a liar." Those were the words she threw & my heart got poisoned by it. I just pretend that everything is okae, pretend that I wasn't feeling the pain, pretend that nothing happened but just so you know, deep in this fragile heart of mine, I'm crying. They won't let me rest til everything's done & yes, I didn't rest but only just a few seconds. My aunt scolded her husband not to carry those heavy boxes & just let me do those things by myself & I was shocked but still her husband ignored her cause he himself knows that I won't be able to carry such a heavy box so he continued carrying them & loading them in the truck. Didn't told my relatives that I was having fever, I just kept it inside, not wanting to tell them cause I know if I did, they'll think I'm just complaining. So I just continued going up & down the stairs not using the lift til a few hours later my body got too tired & I just have to use the lift. Got up back & as I was about to carry the next one, someone called me up. I answered my phone, then one of my aunt which hates me a lot started to insult me, told me to hung up the phone & quickly carry those things down. I just hung up & ignored her. She still continued insulting & mocking me & her "best" friend & one of her daughters started to laugh. Just continued my work & ignored them.

Then when I was walking down with the box, someone called me up, I looked at my phone & it wasn't in my contact list so I just picked up wondering who will call me at this hour & so I did. Hello was the first word he said & I said hello back. His background was so noisy, it's like his not alone. Maybe he is with his friends? He asked whether do I know who is he talking to & of course my answer was a no. Told him that I got to go & I'll call him back, whoever he is & we both hung up. So I just continued moving all those things & my phone rang. Looked at my phone & it was a message from that unknown guy & he just said hi. Kind of smile a little bit I don't know why & I just replied, are you a prankster cause if you are then I won't wanna entertain you. Then I just placed my phone in my pocket & get back to work. Everything's almost done so I checked my phone & there's two messages from him & the first one was, I'm not a prankster... I'm a gangster & the second one was a poem & then there's this sentence that he type out before he wrote my name, "Senyum senyum selalu zairul". That sentence, I know who it was, my SG bestfriend, N. That cute guy, oh gosh. He have my number & it's a confirm he took my number from S. Smiled after reading it & there is his name right below. At least he made my night.

So I just continued my work & after a few hours later, everything's done. We all have loaded the things into the lorry & they drove off. My granny, my two aunts & I took a cab to our new crib & we reached there before the lorry so while waiting for the lorry to arrive, we move the things up to our crib. I was too tired, but still I just continued til almost about an hour, I just went up to my crib & rest. So darn tired & I asked my aunt to place her hand on my neck & she said that I'm having a fever. I nodded & said to her that I'm too tired, then granny came calling my phone & I picked up. She damn me so badly saying that I'm useless as always & she just hung up. I just hold on to my tears & I told my aunt about it. This aunt of mine is not like any others. She understands me cause she used to be like me. I called up Hafiz & I was begging to him to help me out cause I really can't take it, Hafiz was so tired so he said that he will be on his way. Thank him a lot of time & we hung up. Told my aunt about it & she called my granny just to inform her about it. Then they argued on the phone & of course my aunt was trying to make her facts right, not siding anyone though. After the arguement, she hung up & she went up at the 6th floor where the things are being placed there.

She talk to my aunt & her girlfriend, telling them that this is just a last minute plan so why must everyone get so pissed off. Everyone's sick including me she said & she just continue talking to them while I just carry the things down to the crib. After about an hour, hafiz called & he said that he have reached. I hung up & went down the stairs. Saw him with granny & I told him to follow me up to the 6th floor. So we went up & I introduce him to my aunts. Then we just get back to moving the things. After another hour, I seriously got very tired & my hands were all aching red. I was complaining to Hafiz how weak my body is & I can't manage this but he just told me to hold on & bear with it just a bit more cause we're almost done & so I did. Aunt call up the Macdonald to order some food & drinks for us. Then after about half an hour, the Mac delivery man arrived & he gave us our food & drinks & my aunt held out the money & gave it to him. They sat down with granny & drank & I stand one side with hafiz. Talk to him for awhile & my granny suddenly called my name. I answered & went to her & she started to damn me again. I just talk back to her nicely & then she damn me even more. I hold on to my tears & continue moving the things down. Can't believe what she had just said. "Useless child, no wonder your mother kick you out, because of your attitude."

When I got down, tears came falling from my eyes. Then I just hold it & swallow it back. Don't wanna show that I'm in pain. About a few hours later, I went up & I saw my aunt was vomiting at the corner & they all went down leaving me & Hafiz to do the job. Only left with 3 or 4 more, so we continued moving the things down together, one by one we carry it down. When we reached to my crib, my granny told us that she & my aunt's girlfriend will take my aunt to the hospital cause of what happen so she told us to move it all in then once we're done, I need to call her up. I just went in & they went off. Hafiz & I just went up to the 6th floor again & carry all those things down. After 30mins, we only left with one more furniture. We went back up with my 12-year-old aunt & Hafiz & I carried the furniture down. Told my aunt to give me a boost & she did. Feel a bit more lighter now & we all carry it down to the crib. Done everything & told my aunt to text granny that we're done & we need to head off. Then granny called, I picked up & told her we need to go. Granny thank me & Hafiz for helping her then we hung up & Hafiz & I took a cab to his home. Reached home, wash up, went to his room & lay my head on the pillow. Hafiz placed his hand on my neck & he said that my body temperature is burning hot. I smiled while my body was shivering & I close my eyes, wandering off to my dreams.

Woke up & now here I am sitting down in the room still feeling weak. Going out alone later to just release out my stress & will be back home at night. Look at my hands & gosh, the redness is still the there & so is the pain. Whatever it is, now you know that how badly I'm treated & still I just suck it up & pretend nothing happened. I know that I need to be strong cause if I don't, I won't be here now, typing what is happening around me.

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